Super sabaw!

Good night sweet prince...

Wed, 01 Oct 2008 15:49:08 GMT

Macco, my orgmate, passed away this afternoon.

Lets pray for him...

I don't think I should have a long entry for this.

POWTAAH!! Yung video ng FGD ko!!!!!

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 04:48:30 GMT

Sa ngayon ay nahihirapan ako sa pag capture ng video ng FGD ko. Patigil-tigil yung video at sabi may problema daw sa tape ko. Eh kakabili ko lang ng tape kahapon eh anak ng tokwa!

Am pretty sure that if theres a problem, it would be the program the shop is using. It looks like downloaded crap from the net, not even something professional (not even close to those programs we used in BC130).

PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFTTTTTT

If theres a problem, I'll just go to another shop to capture the video with better software!

Argghh! I could have done this myself if my pc has the right hardware <_< (My pc doesnt have a video capture card hmph)..

Hopefully I can work this out before 5:30.

SIDE DISH:
Alam kong its wrong haha pero usisero ako eh ano ba ?

Dalawa kasi kaming customers na nandun sa shop. Parehas nagthethesis at akalin mong medyo related ang mga course namin basing on the thesis na iniwan lang niya sa counter kaya binasa ko naman haha.Diyos ko, nagfield trip lang ata siya sa isang office tapos tapos na data gathering niya.

ME GOSH !!!! Kung ikukumpara sa data gathering ko at ng mga kabatch ko parang kugn ganun na lang ang data gathering namin eh di lahat ng tao tapos na thesis nila in one sem hahaha :D :D :D

Hay nako superior-superioran nanaman ako.

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Somthing that happened seconds ago!!!:

Di daw makuha talaga yung video at patigil tigil daw. Am consulting other shops. I really think its his software.

Patapos na ang mga drama...

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 07:14:15 GMT

Patapos na ang mga drama ko...

'nuff said.

Tamad akong magsulat bigla eh hehehe.

Idaan ang kalunkutan sa pagiging pisikal :p

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 06:52:21 GMT

My umbrella just got deformed by the rain. Too bad its too dangerous for my camera to take a video of how it got fucked up. hahaha =))

Other updates:

I think am battling my way out of depression already. My true self told me that I have to work on thinggies and should just keep depression at bay until sem break haha! But then again, I hope things would go well with the person, eh di masaya. If not eh di sad. boo!!!

Note to everyone: A good online friend (you haven't met pa ha) explains why he or she got offended or bothered :) People who suddenly just leave you for something you said casually isn't a keeper and you should move on. This doesn't apply if the person has met you at least once :)

Ay! Haha, thesis?

Yeah, its one of the things I learned in my thesis personally. No academic bullshit here, its something I learned while reading up while waiting for my respondents.

I think ill insert the thinggies on symbols in my second draft if I have time :)

I love my thesis :) Too bad my respondents dont haha!

By the way, am here in Blink kasi mainit dito. I got drenched in the rain and people can see through me >_< nahaharass ako. I didn't mean to wear light colored clothes today, I just turned over this week's laundry so I don't have anything else to wear but these.

Still depressed

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 10:00:48 GMT

Am still sad and I dont think any of my friends could help me. Everyone around me is full of arguing, justifications, and name calling.

'nuff said.

PS
And please don't justify yourselves at this point.

Pasaway

Mon, 15 Sep 2008 05:05:25 GMT

I woke up a few minutes ago and its Monday. I have to go back to Baguio but I have yet to fix my things (tangible and non-tangible), and am blogging. Grrr..

I think Ill just go back to Baguio later at 3-4. Am too pooped to go back there, this weekend is very very tiring and I still don't have my camera or any birthday gift. Not even birthday blah (wag maingay mga friends).

So ayun. Happy happy happy birthday to me. Sana ok lang sa parents ko na icash na lang nila yung birthday gift ko at ako na bibili ng digicam.

Birthday ko... at ano naman ?

Sun, 14 Sep 2008 07:51:02 GMT

At ayun na nga, matatapos na ang buhay teenager after 2 hours.

Ano naman kung birthday ko kung di naman ako masaya ?

Ewan ko ba. I am enjoying everything but generall, am still sad.

I don't know how to revive my morale right now.

'nuff said.

Nasa bahay ako eh ano ngayon ?

Fri, 12 Sep 2008 16:08:13 GMT

So umuwi ako ng bahay para sa debut ng kapatid ko. Inaamin ko na sobrang ungodly yung time ng debut dahil lahat kami may ginagawa pero kailangan pumunta eh di go (syempre gusto ko ding pumunta pero if it was any other occasion, probably hindi ako sisipot).

So it all started sa sobrang habang trip ko na taxing talaga tapos yung una pang bubulaga sa akin ay ang napakawalang kwenta kong kuya. Magaling magaling magaling, wala nanaman akong kuwarto and everything kasi nandito siya. Pangalawa, parang stressed na stressed lahat ng tao na parang sana debut na para naman maging masaya na ang lahat.

Kung puwede lang sabihin sa mundo na " HOOOOY !!! WALA MUNANG TRABAHO DEBUT NG KAPATID KO ARGGGHH!" tapos susunod sila eh di ginawa ko na like the egotistic despot jerk I am.

Ang gulo gulo talaga ng bahay. Parang sumabog bigla. Hindi ganito yung family na nakagisnan ko way way before. No hindi siya dahil sa kuya ko, talagang sabog sabog lang ang state ng family ngayon in my selfish perspective.

To top it all off, I am still depressed. Wala na ba talagang bubuhay sa morale ko?

I know nandiyan lagi ang friends ko at syempre ang sarili ko, pero mayroon talagang mga bagay na hindi maibibigay ng ibang tao and that is unconditional acceptance and love. Yung tipong kahit despot, money-faced, hot headed, jerky, bastard, slut (yes, a slut) prince ako, mahal pa rin ako. I know am more than my money and attitude and my friends could vouche for that although not 100%, I wish someone could finally give me that 100%.

Bad grammar is bad, wag niyo nang tirahin because it won't help.

I wish I could just be happy and go on with my life, I wish I didn't found out that I actually have a heart.

puta drama. read and laugh your asses off

Lip Gloss

Tue, 09 Sep 2008 14:52:32 GMT

I am really really curious about this so called Gossip Girl remake. Apparently, everyone in the net ranted about it.

I am currently watchign the trailer of the show, and yes it looks quite sucky, pero ang cute cute ni Mikee Lee talaga LOLS!!!

Money through power and power through money, bad Mikee is bad!

Gawd ang cute talaga!!!

/creepyrave

The best rebound ever

Tue, 09 Sep 2008 14:13:04 GMT

I really can't help but write about these thinggies happening to two of my friends (you probably know who they are and they probably won't read this entry). I was supposed to write about this if they were not behind me last night.

I received a series of text messages (Group messages to be exact) about stuffies ending. Grrr, para silang nag-uusap pero kailangan pa namin malaman ang pinaguusapan nila grabe. And then it did! It ended a few nights ago as what one of the most disguting songs I have ever heard said.

Wow! Mga friends, di kami nagkulang sa paalala. Note, its not just me, its everyone else around them. And then the other person is now quitting the org dahil sabi daw ng nanay niya which is obviously a lie (no proof whatsoever).

Ayan, tumigil nanaman ang utak ko sa pagsusulat kasi naooverwhelm nanaman ako ng mga dapat kong sabihin sa kanila na hindi ko talaga masabi.

This is happening way too often, sorry fans!

Ayun.

PS:

Shet !!! Leah!! Jodie !! Raffy !! Jyx !!

HELP ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Or should I say LETS HELP OURSELVES!!!!!!! shet

PPS
My god E*** is going back to his "State of Nature". Someone stop him.

All that depression with a cherry on top served on a silver platter

Sun, 07 Sep 2008 06:13:36 GMT

BULL SHIT!!

Never ever trust Netopia with your gadgets EVER! Tarou (my iPod) just got comatose. I was updating and adding new songs to my iTouch (it wont work on my pc because my operating system is XP service pack 1 but apple wants service pack 2). But while syncing my stuff, the rotten pc crashed and my iTouch froze. I did some CPR (reset my iTouch by pressing all of the physical buttons together) and thank god he woke up. I was able to revive Tarou but he had a huge case of amnesia. In short, all of my songs, photos and videos got erased. My rage was on full swing but suppressed.

Now am aching to fully go home to restore Tarou's memory, collect stuff for our J-Music exhibit, and attend my sister's debut (of course). I realy want to go home right now but I just have to wait for a week.

But if theres something that would let me forget about my tactless bursts of emotions was the back up feature of iTunes. Yes it really sucked, it didn't back everything. The only thing i Tunes gave back was all of my contacts until the name and contact number of that person.

Nah disregard that, you probably won't believe me.

Am going to church after this... Its about time to thank God now...

Miracles happen and high tech ang mga miracles ngayon.

Note: Ang gulo no ? ill explain pag nagkita tayo.

The depression continues

Sat, 06 Sep 2008 11:06:08 GMT

Jodie won't answer her phone so am stuck with the September Boy's party (September Boy's = September birthday celebrants in my group of friends. Although I would celebrate my birthday on the 14th, I don't share the same wavelength so am not included). And then the depression continues.

Everyone was louder and cheery than me. I tried to be a little bit happy because everyone feels so; pero hindi ako plastik. I was spacing out but they kept on insisting to include me in their goofy antics. Before they did, I was with **a*, the ultimate fling (LOL!) in the kitchen. He was cooking fries for everyone while I eat them as soon as they got out of the pan. Unexpectedly, I wasn't thinking about rape. After all, I won't do it in the middle of a roachy kitchen. Besides the splatter of food scarps, there is someone who is preventing me from doing nasty horn ball acts without even noticing it.

I went back to the ruckus happening in the living room, took my bag, and walked away. I was too sad to say a word. Masisira ko lang yung feel ng party. So ayun, nagnenet ako ngayon. Thinking about things like my stagnant thesis (Come on people! It will only take you 10-30 minutes!), the person I like, the ultimate fling, and about extending my stay in UP (I want to get extra units but am 90% sure that my parents wont allow me).

So should I go back to the party? I'll just be a wall flower na lang siguro. At least there is something different now, si Nico wall flower hahaha! LOL

Seriously, I think I need a fling (am humble enough to say that I already need one.) The serious proxy, yung alam niyang nagagamitan lang kami. Although I do love someone in a one sided manner, the depression is too much to handle. I feel like a tin man who just found his heart. I don't want to be this sad during the hell week, it would really really frak up my grades. And no, I wont be flinging around with **a* because I would be creeping myself out.

PS
Ermm... Am so sorry about being a jerk a few minutes ago. I didn't mean to be snide when you told me about my grammar error. I know I have a lot of em in my blogs but you pointed it out in the worse possible time. Sorry, wala lang talaga ako sa mood. Minsan lang ako malunkot ng pagkatagal-tagal

PPS
Am literally too depressed to function, someone help me please.

PPPS
Puwede ba, walang OH MY GOD NICO YOUR LIKE THAT PALA kind of comments.

PPPPS
Probably, that person won't read this so its safe to write everything.

And the the 652 thousand per mil fact that would help me battle my depression

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 05:10:56 GMT

Everyone is telling me that there isn't anything negative other than the person's SMS behavior.

Not just everyone, research and thinggies I learned at school seems to agree with my friends.

Shucks, ako na nga lumalapit (kahit inches lang) mahihiya pa yung tao.

Paano ko kaya lalabanan ang hiya ng ibang tao kung ako rin mismo ay nahihiya ?

A simple case of depression

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 03:54:27 GMT

It really sucks to be bored and stressed at the same time. Am currently squashed between having nothing to do and my thesis (which is something I should do). I don't even know what I want to do right now. Generally, there is something that I want to do but I just don't want to do it.

I hate anxiety between people. It turns potentially intimate human interactions into a hit or miss game that are similar to those one-bullet-one-target-one-shot mini games. Probably, its human nature for one to say move away from someone he or she dislikes or someone who confessed without the mutual intimacy. Di ka naman kakainin ng taong nagugustuhan ka di ba ?

It bothers me if one person won't reply (in person and in mediated forms of communication). There are a lot of factors if one does not really reply but I can't tell if I got accepted or rejected. Silence is not a universal answer, it would hurt as much as it would be useful.

The uncertainty of dealing with people also bothers me a lot. You can't buy people, you can never control them even if your actually more superior than them and it bothers me. But thats the way the world works. I myself wouldn't want to be controlled by other people so quits lang I guess.

I am used to getting everything I wanted by applying a reasonable amount of labor on something that I want. But as of now, what I want is a person, something one can never work on. You could work to impress a person for as much as you like but it all boils down to the choice of one person.

It is fifty-fifty. Its either a yes or no, a hit or miss, a win or lose. The thing is, I don't want a no for an answer but its ok if I got one.

Well, if that person just knew how much I am willing to give for a short moment.

bleargh sumasabaw na ang writing ko. Am too depressed and poop to keep everything coherent.

PS
That person won't probably read this entry.

All your science projects are belong to Pisci

Wed, 03 Sep 2008 07:57:35 GMT

Nico and Arvin talks about high school science projects and how Pisci whooped the ass of our schools.

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Arvin Peralta: alam mo ba tinalo kami sa science project ng taga phil sci din!

megane_k_u_n: akin kamote pancake mix that could last for 10 years

Arvin Peralta: tungkol sa mutation sa BRC1 gene to identify breast cancer!!!!

megane_k_u_n: wtf

megane_k_u_n: HIGH SCHOOL ?!

megane_k_u_n: OH MY GOD

Arvin Peralta: diba? anong ipanlalaban ng kamote mix at kandila natin

Arvin Peralta: sa mga genetics at cytotoxicity nila!

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Ang thesis ko...

Sat, 30 Aug 2008 15:11:23 GMT

Mas nakakagising pa ang text ni sir kaysa sa text ng aking crush kaninang umaga. September 15 na daw ang deadline ng drafts at napa-OH-MY-GOD ako ng di oras. Eh plano ko pa lang magsimula ng data gathering ko kanina. In fairness nakapagstart na ako sa experiments ko (mahirap kumuha ng respondents promise. No, its not because am bad at persuading people, its because everyone else is way too busy), pero kahit matapos ko yung data gathering sa week na ito (which was my target from the very start. As in pinalano ko yung thesis ko in my planner.), hindi pa rin ako aabot.Di ako sure kung final draft na ba ang hinihingi or whatever, pero sure ako di ako makakapagsubmit ng draft beyond the first one.

So, mag-drop na lang kaya muna ako ng comm200 tapos tuloy ko na lang yung ginagawa ko para next sem magsusubmit na lang ako ng final draft.

Di ko pa nakakausap si sir though, pero I hope wake-up-call bluff lang yung tinext niya ;_; pero most probably hindi. I really really want to talk to my adviser na para naman magkaroon ako ng peace of mind sa aking gagawin. Kung ifoforce ko ang sarili ko na tapusin na ang thesis this sem, its either maprapraning ako or masisingko ako... well sa akin lang yun. Maybe sir would give me something that would make me feel better and actually finish my thesis this sem.

Either way, ok lang naman kung idrodrop ko siya or itutuloy ko siya (at itutuloy ko lang siya kapag ang september 15 ay hindi final draft me gawd).

After all, normal lang naman ang di matapos ang thesis ng 1 sem

haist.

Sad ... suddenly...

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 14:12:06 GMT

So ayun, frustrated nanaman ako sa aking buhay. For starters, I can't even find respondents for my thesis. I need 5 comm and 5 math students (I got 4 comm students and 2 math students so far) which was hard to do since everyone can't be swayed by two free meals. Wala pa ako sa focused group discussion niyan ha.

But whats really bothering me lately is my low morale. I guess am generally melancholic since the sem started.

Tulad ng mga thesis respondents, I can't sway everyone with money, and it really frustrates me.

blah, ang sama ng pagkakasulat hmph. Masyado lang akong malunkot siguro. basta ang naalala ko yung sinabi ng friend ko.

"Whoever your crushing on is very lucky and unlucky at the same time. That person is lucky because *that person* will always be loved unconditionally, having a person to rely on everything, and someone who purely cares. Not to mention, *that person* will get anything *that person* wants with a sensible price. Unlucky because *that person* will never know how I really feel about *that person*. If the feeling is mutual, sayang."

bad grammar bad grammar bad grammar lolololololol

whatever.

I know everyone is annoyed at this line but its so blah.

PS:
Annoyed and pissed off ako sa Salakniban kanina. Grrr... Siguro naman everyone heard my rant.

Court Hearings = The Biggest Hassle Ever!!

Thu, 21 Aug 2008 05:18:30 GMT

Di ako nakapasok ng SC104 dahil sa court blah. Feeling naman ni Judge whats-her-name mas maganda siya kaysa kay Maam Joy para hindi ako papuntahin sa klase niya. It was a very boring and overly rigid morning. My dad was in a huge fuss about me saying thinggies na kailangan lang sabihin sa court. Akala ko ako lang ang may hearing, yun pala andami-dami rin palang kaso na dinadaan sa pre-trial noong araw na iyon. May nanay na dinemanda ang asawa dahil sa kakulangan sa sustento, merong estafa, andami-dami. Lahat nahahassle sa kanilang ginagawa dahil ang kasimpleng hustisya ay hindi nabibigay agad agad. Hindi rin lahat ng complainants matino at hindi lahat ng pakikitungo ng mga tao sa korte ay matino. garrr "Mr. Nicolai Chiong" sabi ng nagmamagandang judge-whats-her-name. So tayo naman ako, lumapit ako sa prosecutor at ibinigay ang ebidensiya ko. Side dish lang, kailangan pa talagang umakyat ang parents ko para lang ibigay sa akin ang ebidensya (ang phone na ninakaw matapos akong gulpihin). Sabay tanong naman si judge whats-her-name "Mr.Chiong, where do you live?" Since the question was so vague I was paused for a few seconds tapos inulit ng judge yung tanong niya sa mas mataray na tono. Eh di no choice ako. Sabi ko "Ate, sa BF Paranaque po ako nakatira pero nagaaral lang ako dito. Sa NBI Baguio ako nagstastay!"... super tahimik... as in makakarinig ka ng mga kuliglig ng alas nueve ng umaga... "YOU DON'T ADDRESS THE JUDGE AS ATE, YOU ADDRESS HER AS YOUR HONOR!!!!" sabi ng julalay ng Judge. Eh di nasindak naman ako. I cringed while saying "Oh! Sorry na!" with my cringed face. Nagpanic kasi ako eh, hindi man lang niya tinanong kugn anong klaseng address. Sabi ng prosecutor straight to the point daw lagi eh papaano kung hindi straight to the point yugn question. I will get charged with contempt daw if I continue to do that. So pasabog ako sa korte nung araw na iyon... It was supposed to be the pre-trial for my case but It was postponed since one of the suspects did not appear in court. ANG GALING!! GRABEEEEEEEEEEH No wonder justice is so fucked up now a days. Kasimple-simpleng robbery with violence tapos sobrang obvious na yugn evidences and everything di matapos-tapos pfffft. /rant

WANTED: Thesis Respondents!

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 14:13:39 GMT

Do you want free meals just for chatting with someone?

Kailangan ko ng tig-apat na 3rd year Math at Comm students for my thesis experiment :)

Iwan lang kayo ng comment or message niyo lang ako dito sa multiply kung ok lang sa inyo :)

Remember, libre kain din ito hehe :D

The experiments would be conducted this week :D

*May thesis assistant na ako eh hihi*

Impromtu trip. bull siyet

Sat, 16 Aug 2008 04:44:17 GMT

My dad wants me home right now to get my court evidences (birth certificate and the snatched cell phone).

Super hassle, they didn't even told me to yesterday PFFFFFT!! And I won't go even if they did because am too dead tired.For crying out loud, I just agreed with my BC107 groupmates that I won't be allowed to perform in the production if I didn't attend the meeting.

Heres the drill:

-Go home ASAP

-Get court evidences

-Bum around for 2 hours

-Go back to Baguio.

-Do my thesis PFFFFFFFFFFTTT

Gawd! Justice is so unreasonable nowadays!

Feeling ng hustisya ngayon ay I will do everything to win a case. But its too big of a hassle.

Doing court shit will literally make me sick BUT this won't end until I did the thinggies above.

Things to do this weekend...

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 17:07:16 GMT

Saturday

- 10 AM: BC107 meet for radio news production thinggy

- Thesis editing (revise everything and start data gathering next weekend)

Sunday

- SC 104 Journal entries (I only made 1 journal entry out of 5. Garrr)

- 2PM: BC 107 meet for radio news production thinggy again.

- Try doing a quarter of thesis experiments. Damn >_<

Monday

- Try doing another quarter of thesis experiments.

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My weekend is filled with work that I have to rely on other people. Garrr... this will really stress me up.

Especially the thinggy where I have to ask 3rd year comm and math students. Its easy to grasp the comm students but it would be a bit hard to get the math ones <_<.

Come on, libre kain na nga ito eh >_<.

And I doubt they would allow me to repeat the experiments once I wasted an hour of their time grrr...

Freshy Night blah blah

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 19:57:45 GMT

At tinuloy ko ang pagfefeeling freshy ko sa freshy night. Talagang nakadress-up pa ako nun as a Kafra Boy (thank you sa mga nagsabing ang guwapo ko hehe ). So unang-una, umattend ako ng freshy night para asikasuhin ang foodsale ng Anime_HQ which is successful naman. Anywho maraming mga masasayang bagay na nangyari sa araw na iyon.

Anyway, I won't get into the juicy nitty gritties of my joy. Wala na pong libreng tsismis sa blog na ito. Basta yung mga friends ko, alam niyo na ang ups and downs ng araw na ito.

So ayun, dahil di makauwi si Jodie, super bonding kami ngayong gabi. Palaboy laboy lang sa Baguio kahit may 7-11:30 class ako.

Shet, impromptu commentary pala kami sa BC107.

Me gawd, sana ipostpone ni Sir Arjay.

Freshy Night Dress-up

Sun, 10 Aug 2008 08:59:23 GMT

I'll dress up as a Kafra Boy sa freshy night. Minsan na lang ako magdress up kasi I don't really find the clothes I really like, kung meron man di siya kasiya.

My crude cosplay can also double as the male version of Reizen. She would probably wear something like what I'll be wearing if she was a guy.

Taklesa - Tactless

Sat, 09 Aug 2008 10:23:57 GMT

Kanina, I was pondering about my friends (my 3rd year friends except for Leah). Minsan naiisip ko nagsasawa na talaga ako sa kanila. They really can't decipher what is a serious, neutral, pang-asar, or whatever comment. Not to mention I really think that...

DIGIMON IS THE LAMEST THING EVER DEMMEEEEEEET!!!!

Tapos they were telling me to leave their house in a serious tone because I commented about the Digimon opening theme (Butterfly by Wada Kouji) while RB was playing with his Renamons and Metalgarurumons. "Wow ha, digimon na digimon tayo ngayon" I said. Grrr...

Then after that I said something about the orgs as usual. My other friend (who is an activity head) didn't know that he could call for a meeting with out my (am the chairperson) consent. I did add something about Leah (who is the treasurer) can't call or formal meetings. But the trade off is nobody can handle org money except for her. She did snapped at us comically.

But RB really really has to tell Leah that she is maarte and blah blah blah his needs. Its very strange kasi he is the only one who is telling that Leah is maarte eh hindi naman, halatang bitter bitter lang siya because she can crush his balls anytime. Kung may maarte sa group of friends ko, ako na yun garrr.

So nagalit at nagwalk-out naman an BFF ko. Hello! Sino nga naman ang di magagalit sa tactless and uncalled for comment.

Buwisit.

Soc Sci 2 Exam tommorow and all am doing is blah

Fri, 08 Aug 2008 16:30:39 GMT

I am supposed to be reviewing stuff for my soc sci 2 exam tomorrow. Maam German told us that it would be long. The coverage would be political thought from Aristotle to Mills.

Damn, I just don't have the motivation to review right now. If tomorrow's exam would be Nat Sci 3 I would have been reviewing but no. Ill just wake up at 7 AM no matter how short my sleep would be and start reading from there. After receiving my thesis and telling the food sale's activity head what to do, ill be sleeping.

Pffft